her.
Trixie
16 years old, trapped in an 11-year old's body
loves the scent of: cupboards, air conditioners, coffee, cinammon, and Bayo (as in the store)
moods too easily swayed by whatever music is playing
fickle, undecided, impatient, paranoid
Jason Mraz ♥
likes things clean, but is pretty messy
interested in photography (haha as if)
out of words
Wednesday, August 29, 2007!
HandWritten on; 3:56 AM
I was supposed to update this yesterday, but somewhere between talking with Joy on the phone and doing my Religion homework, the blogspot window disappeared and my apparent laziness to compose an entry hindered me from opening a new tab on Mozilla. Anywaaaay, Joy and I were talking about college and what course we would take. She was telling me earlier that day how Advertising seemed like a good option for her. I thought about that once, too, but I quickly decided I have no talent whatsoever in that field (unlike Joy who is a complete computer freak and who could do wonders with just a few clicks on her mouse). Anyway, I realized that if I do pursue a Law career (not that it's highly likely though. but you know, i consider it a possible choice for me), Alyssa and I would be graduating at the same time. Add another year for Bar Exams or whatever and Chot will be already be a college graduate by the time I become a licensed lawyer. Joy was asking, "Mag-llaw ka ba talaga?"
And as usual, I couldn't answer it with a yes or a no.
"Hmm, siguro. Ewan ko."
"Di kita masyadong makita na lawyer," Joy quipped.
"E ano?"
"Basta something sa pagsusulat talaga."
Journalism? Don't think so. Considering that I have been writing for the mag for years now, I really just don't picture myself being involved with this sort of thing in the long run. Why? I guess it boils down to another question: Is this not my passion? The thing is, it's hard to tell whether or not something you've grown accustomed to doing is really what you want to do or not. And I asked myself that question. The answer? Writing has become more of a responsibility to me than it is my passion. I guess because of all the pressure to write, write, and write, I've seen this craft as something I need to do, rather than what I love to do. I've been engaged in this for so long now, that before I even realize my love for it, I've already tried out for the mag; ergo, my paper duties. I want to love this, I want to savor every waking second that I construct a decent sentence for the magazine, because I do believe that in order to achieve the best results, you have to love what you're trying to do. I want to be passionate about something I have at least a little talent for, and I need to love writing more for me to excel in it better. Do I make sense? I don't know. Maybe not. This is all too complicated. And so emo. Eh ayoko na nga maging emo eh. Lahat nalang ng nasulat kong blog entries ay puro tuwing deep yung iniisip ko. Enough.
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I changed my url to "mainitnacoke." Haha. It was during computer class a while ago, and Lia and I were doodling in my notebook for "good combinations" of different drinks. Patawa kasi si Lisette eh. Like, she drew a carton of MILO plus a bottle of Coke and said the mixture tasted really good. Gross, I know. But I'll try it anyway. So I was deeply thinking about something good to mix with Coke when I just randomly thought about mainit na Coke. Not the room temperature Coke we all hate. Hindi yung tipong nakakainis-dahil-walang-ice na Coke. As in, MAINIT na Coke. Minicrowave na Coke. Boiled Coke? Ewan. Gusto ko lang itry. Weird, I know. Pero cool din kaya.
"Uy ano blog mo?"
"mainitnacoke.blogspot.com"
HAHA.
That's all folks :)
