her.
Trixie
16 years old, trapped in an 11-year old's body
loves the scent of: cupboards, air conditioners, coffee, cinammon, and Bayo (as in the store)
moods too easily swayed by whatever music is playing
fickle, undecided, impatient, paranoid
Jason Mraz ♥
likes things clean, but is pretty messy
interested in photography (haha as if)
out of words
Tuesday, October 30, 2007!
HandWritten on; 6:29 PM
I'm falling in love with this song by someone I'm in love with. Haha. It's called I'm Yours by the amazing Jason Mraz. It kind of sounds like a song you'd hear from 50 First Dates. Suuuper nice. I just checked for chords at ultimate-guitar and I found easy ones, so I'll study them later. The lyrics are reallllly nice, too. Quotable lyrics ;)
Nothing's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn, to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved
So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours
I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue
love love love :)
Btw, I'm finally leaving this rotten place. Haha OA. But I'm FINALLY going out! To the derma, then to the mall. Oh yeah. It's my saving grace ;) And I haven't done ANY homework. Congratulate me for not caring at all for once in my life.
Monday, October 29, 2007!
HandWritten on; 2:57 AM
Sleeping seems to have been the favorite activity for today. I woke up at 11 (slept at around 10:30) which is waaaay too late for me since I usually wake up between 8 and 9 during summer/vacation/weekends. I did absolutely NOTHING worthy to blog about. At 2pm I found myself sprawled on the couch in the family room, flicking through channels and realizing that cable's out (again. Sky sucks). Soon I fell asleep, obviously not for the reason of lacking sleep but apparently because of boredom which is highly pathetic even for my standards. I'm on this rare break and what's supposed to be the best time of my life since summer and I'm totally wasting it on SLEEPING. Okay, so I have tons to do for school cause they decided to give lots of homework to probably make up for the whole week spent for Dance Pro practices buuuut I'm still too lazy to start with anything. Was there ever a time in your life when you just sit, stare outside the window noticing that the sky has already turned pitch black and regretted the fact that you wasted a whole day doing NOTHING? If it were summer, I wouldn't have minded since I'd have two and a half months--roughly 75 days--and what's one out of 75 thrown into the bin, right? It's like giving a single cookie to someone when you have 3 more boxes: it doesn't make a difference. But the thing is, I only have a week of vacation and I want to spend it the best way I could. I don't want to be sitting here at home, bored out of my skull, and I don't want to do any homework either--at least not yet. Give me something to do, anyone? Invite me to the beach even in the middle of a storm and I'd gladly oblige. ANYTHING. Shoot, I'm so desperate.
Anyway, family day's over and I had fun. I was sooooo tired though. My legs and throat ached like hell, I was sweating so bad the whole day, and I felt really really sticky and dirty. But it was okay, since I got to spend time with my friends and just talk and talk and talk. Nicole Torres (I have to type in and say her whole name all the time, or else I gotta pay one peso cause of this 'agreement' we have ;p)got sick though. Tsk. So anyway, I was in Chex's car cause my parents agreed to let me stay till the concert and said they'd pick me up from Chex's house at around 10. Chex and I were reeeaaally tired and we weren't talking cause I think we both lost the energy to even do that. Then Mama called and asked me whether or not we left school already and I said yeah, we were on our way. She was kinda groggy cause I think she just woke up and was probably feeling too lazy to get up and fetch me so she went, "Gusto mo matulog ka nalang diyan?" I completely forgot how tired I was. My eyes which were probably half-closed literally opened so wide. Mama talked to Tita Jazz and Chex and I started screaming "i love you, ma/tita!!!" Haha, that was funny. We'd been waiting for a sleepover since Grade 4 and after 5 years, we finally got it. So I slept over, we talked and we slept. You should've seen our smiles when we woke up. Can't believe I was finally allowed to sleep over at Chex's! I was picked up at around 10:30. Yeah, too early, but it's okay. I had lotsa fun. Thanks Chex and Tita Jazz :)
The rest of Sunday was too blah to blog about. Now that I think about it, I actually wasted one and a half days of my vacation. Ugh. Hmm, and now that I think about it even more, I'm still in the clothes I slept in last night. Gross, I know, but at least all I did today was sleep so I didn't really sweat in these or anything. Gotta take a shower. See ya.
Friday, October 26, 2007!
HandWritten on; 3:51 AM
I'm almost through with my costume. Partly done with the big flower in front, but I still have to outline the swirls with sequins. Okaaaay, fine, so I didn't really exert a lot of effort in making it. I didn't give it all--in fact, I didn't give much. No blood, sweat, and tears here. I only started sewing during my second day of home alone-ness. Pero ano ba, I badly needed help with this noh. I can't sew good stitches to save my life. Okay, OA. At least gumagawa na ko ngayon, even if it is a little too late. Anyway, I (duh) went to school today already. I was having a hard time at first, cause everyone who used to be one with me in messing up the steps turned into these expert gymnasts in a short span of two days. Haha. Whole day practice kasi, ang adik. Kaya yun. So they were all so good in dancing, synchronized and not missing a beat, while I was left alone, confused, grunting, coughing, and perpetually lost. Haha, but thankfully I caught up with them after a few rounds of practice. I can't believe family day's tomorrow!! Grabe, everything's happening so quickly. Parang super bilis lang nagpractice for dance pro. Super bilis ng school year na 'to. I'm not feeling the excitement yet, but that's probably because I still don't know what to wear. Haha ang arte. Okay, I gotta go back to (ugh) sewing now. See y'all on the dance floor. Yeah, baby, yeah! HAHA LABOOOO.
Thursday, October 25, 2007!
HandWritten on; 1:38 AM
Still didn't go to school. I'm feeling a lot better now, though, so it's good that I took the day off. BUT my throat still hurts bad--I hope and pray it'll be okay tomorrow. Anywaaay, I did a couple of kind of fun things while everyone was away at school. Haha. I tried baking the cookie bar recipe my group chose for TLE and they turned out really good, but they were a little too sweet. Then I sewed a little part of my dance pro costume. Then I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (one of the VCDs which were on sale when I went to AstroVision. it may sound dorky and jologs, pero parang may mini collection na ko ng VCD copies ng old movies. kasi pag summer or pag break, pumupunta kong AstroVision. eh ang mura kaya ng VCDs ng old movies, 75-100 pesos lang. kaya humahakot ako, tapos nagmamarathon ako ng mga movies na dati pa pinalabas, most of which ay napanood ko na rin dati. haha. pero di ko pa napapanood yung eternal sunshine, kanina lang.). It was a little confusing and at the same time depressing at first, but it was okay. Here's a little quote from Kirsten Dunst's character who quoted Alexander Pope in his poem, "Eloisa to Abelard":
"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot, the world forgetting by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, each prayer accepted and each wish resigned."
I think you have to read the whole poem first before understanding what that means. I googled it, super haba. So wag na lang. Di ko na susubukang intindihin pa :)) Let's just all be left stunned by a poet's highfalutin words.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007!
HandWritten on; 7:46 PM
I'm at home. Didn't go to school. My head is pounding, I've got a slight fever, and my throat seems to be constricted cause I can't swallow. Ugh, I'm gonna be missing a lot today. Goodluck sakin bukas sa general rehearsal. At ngayon pa ata manonood ng Romeo and Juliet for English. Arrrgh. Hay hay hay hay. Nakakainis talaga pag may sakit ka. Super sakit talaga ng ulo ko, as in, literal na parang may heartbeat siya (except hindi sa heart. labo. sooo, headbeat??). Pag nakahiga ako, naffeel ko parang tumitibok tibok (haha) siya, tapos ang lakas pa. Haaaay nako. Maybe I'm just exhausted. Nakakapagod magstretch stretch and sumayaw sayaw kung hindi ka sanay noh! Tsk. Sana makapasok na ko bukas :-/
By the way, I've been browsing through apple.com and I really want the new iPod nano (na may video)! Tsk. Nakita ko kasi yung sa classmate ko. Ang gandaaaaa.
Wishlist na kailangan ng miracle para matupad:
-iPod nano, new version
-to get well really really really soon (like, now.)
-to not miss a lot today, or at least to be able to catch up real quick with the class
Tss. Asa.
Monday, October 22, 2007!
HandWritten on; 5:09 AM
Clock reads 8:09. At 8:10 (or 11), I shall stop this rant. Things to do for tomorrow:
2 Thematic Gospel Reflections
1 Homework in Religion
1 Homework in Geom
1 Homework in Socsci
1 Quiz in TLE
2 TGRs down, 4 more things to do. Can I just say how much we're being puniiished? Hello, dance pro kaya! I went home so tired and I doubt I can even sleep early due to the work given to us. Hanep talaga oh. Okay, time's up. What a useless post. Just had to let it out. Okay, bye.
Sunday, October 21, 2007!
HandWritten on; 7:10 AM
I'm thinking about finally publicizing this blog. It's just different knowing that you don't exactly have readers except for two or three of your closest friends who know everything that happens to you even before you blog about it. So, yeah. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe next week. I've got an amazing banner (based on Jason Mraz's "Wordplay"). It's time to shine!Btw, I watched Stardust. People were right, the book's waaay better than the movie but the movie was good too. I think Kirsten Dunst would've played a much better Yvaine, though, because besides the fact that Claire Danes isn't very pretty and star-ish, I can't disregard how she badmouthed Manila and the Philippines to Vogue and Premiere before (from Wiki: In 1998, just after the filming of Brokedown Palace in Manila, she was quoted in Vogue as saying that Manila was a "ghastly and weird city". She further remarked in Premiere that the city, "smelled of cockroaches, with rats all over and that there is no sewage system and the people do not have anything -- no arms, no legs, no eyes"). So yes, I don't like her. I love Tristran Thorn both in the movie and the book, though. And Sienna Miller! She's the perfect Victoria Forester. Okaaaay. Anyway, I gotta sleep now. Goodnight, world.A philosopher once asked, "Are we human because we gaze at the stars, or do we gaze at them because we are human?" Pointless, really. But "Do the stars gaze back?" Now that's a question.
Friday, October 19, 2007!
HandWritten on; 5:03 AM
Um, okay, so walang sense yung title. E basta, dalawa yung kwento ko okay? Game.
kissed for the very first time
Today I was kissed for the first time. By a boy. A real, live and kicking BOY. Thank goodness this blog remains private, or else I wouldn't be free to write about it here. Let me tell you a little about him. He's strikingly handsome, his skin's smooth and white, he's got a head full of jet black hair, he's the smartest in his class, and well, fine, so he's five years old. But still! Okay okay I'll make kwento na. Haha joke lang. So conyotic. ANYWAY. Ayun, we went to Bukluran again for Palihan, and it was time to say bye. I approached the group of my favorite kids (i know, i know it's wrong to play faves but you can't really resist it noh) and I started giving them high fives. There were about 4 of them and the others were starting to run around after they apir-ed me. But Jamil, this boy I'm talking about, stayed behind and stretched his arms upward with his hands open and then he started making a kissing face. I was shocked but I bent down anyway, and he grabbed my face and kissed me on the cheek! Aaaaaah. It was the CUTEST thing, you know?? No, you don't. But it waaaaaaas! Hay. Perfect first kiss by the perfect little kid. Nakakatuwa talaga :D
the sun set at kenny
happy sweet sixteenth nicole torres!
It's Nicole's birthday! Happy birrrthday! You could tell she wasn't happy in school. As in, feeling niya hindi niya talaga birthday. I don't think she had any idea she was in for a big surprise. I think and hope we were kinda convincing :)) So we surprised her at Kenny, and although it didn't go exactly according to plan (everyone was supposed to be there already before she arrived, but what happened was they all came in groups of 4 or 5 so every time new people would come in, she'd go, "Haaaaa! Pati kayoooo?!" and be surprised), I think we did pretty well. Grabe Gabrielle Nicole Socco Torres, ang dami daming nagmamahal sayo! Pasalamat ka ah! Yung multicolored papers, wag mo limutang sulatan ng thank you samin. HAAAA! Hehe. Birthday din nina Bobits at Maan Albino sa Sunday so triple celebration siya actually. At parang ii2 reunion din. Almost half ata ng class? Or hindi naman? Basta maraming ii2 plus si Chex syempre. Kaya sobrang saya talaga. Ang masasabi ko lang: Iba talaga ii2. I love them all to the tiniest bits. I quote Melai, "Lalalalove the 'icing sa ngipin' pictorial. At walang kapantay ang tawanan sessions ng ii2." Sa uulitin, mga mayayaman. Next stop: Tatalon. Excited na ko! :) Pictures to come @ my multiply. Bukas na :)
Wednesday, October 17, 2007!
HandWritten on; 4:12 AM
Sudden urge to post pictures of the people I love and miss the most.
I want to both smile and cry. Happy memories. Only memories.
!
HandWritten on; 1:53 AM
"The best way to make it through with hearts and wrists intact is to realize that two out of three ain't bad."
The line from I'm Like A Lawyer... (Me and You) is the best way to tell you my ideal perspective in life. When you think hard, some things are just meant to be that way, and to try to correct every single error simply won't do any good to you. I've always been the secret perfectionist. I aim high, and I want to reach what I aim for. I did not fail any subject or exam, so no, that's not the reason for this sudden awakening. I guess I just realized that perfection is simply unattainable. I mean, so what if you got a low score in Chem, or if you can't sing a note in tune, or if no matter how hard you try, you just can't keep up with complicated gymnastic steps? Who cares if you gained a few pounds over the long weekend or if you think your thighs are getting too big? So what if you can't get a volleyball over to the other side of the net, or if you can't get the ball into the basket? Who cares if you made the most stupid mistake in a quiz? So what if your grammar isn't perfect, or if you accidentally pronounce words so barok-ly? Who cares if you're inventing new words?? The point is, these things are already there. There's no use in getting all stressed and worried and depressed about things you cannot change anymore. We all make mistakes, we all have flaws and the fact that nothing is perfect just has to be accepted. I know it's too much of a cliche but as Patricia Evangelista says, it's a cliche because it's true. It all boils down to being content with what you have, and to realize that being imperfect isn't bad at all. The best way to keep your heart and your wrists intact is to realize that TWO OUT OF THREE ISN'T BAD. It isn't bad at all. To stay sane, know that it's okay to be wrong and it's okay to make mistakes. After all, everybody makes them. Why can't you?
Tuesday, October 16, 2007!
HandWritten on; 1:33 AM
"But I have no wish to be a lord of anywhere," he told her "or of anything, except perhaps my lady's heart." And he took the star's hand in his.
Let me quote the priest from today's Mass, "Pimples, too, shall pass." HA. It's as if God personally sent a messenger to convey this message to MEEEE. Hahaha. Feeling ako lang may pimple e noh. But yeah, that's how I feel, since I have been bugged by my zit-filled face for the past couple of days. I went to the derma last Saturday and he gave me some overpriced medicine to cure this ugly plague but all it seems to do is to worsen my condition. Ugh. So much for viewing pimples in an "entirely different way." I was inspired by the priest though, so yeah, I guess I should stop being bothered now.
Anyway, I finished reading Stardust last night so I can watch the movie now. There are a few comments I've been hearing about the movie not quite measuring up to the standard of the book but it's okay. That's how it always is anyway, especially for grrrrreat books like this. I really wasn't able to put it down! It was my first time to read a fantasy novel and I looooved it. A star and a man falling in love... it's so beautifuuuuul! I highly recommend it. Go go go, grab a copy :)
---edit
For the past hour, I've been trying to start writing my second column for the mag. It's still so haaaaaard! I guess it's the thought that the deadline won't be until a month from now, and because there's no time pressure at all. Ugh. I want to finish my mag duties as soon as possible :/
Sunday, October 7, 2007!
HandWritten on; 3:19 AM
I have decided to view pimples in an entirely different way.
Beware: The entry may contain gross, but factual terms.
Old definition:
Pimples (n)
-round spots that could come in various sizes, and various shades of red. may contain white puss.
-they usually come out when one is stressed
-attach themselves permanently to the unfortunate ones who have oily skin (ehem)
-are extremely ugly and useless "gifts" of nature, which exist for the sole purpose of dragging down a person's (usually a teenager's) self esteem; oh and they could serve as a reminder for some people who need to pay a little more attention to their personal hygiene: they scream "WASH YOUR FACE!" louder than anyone or anything can
Because I am convinced that these pimples are not going away anytime soon, here's the new defintion:
Pimples (n)
-a sign of a student's extreme diligence and effort to do great in school
-a sign of stress and lack of sleep: caused by late nights studying, an overload of book pages to be read, and tons of stuff to be memorized (i.e., CFCs, Renaissance people, etc.)
-an unofficial license to claim that one has "studied real hard" for her nearing quarter exams. if one wants to boast about her zealous efforts, she therefore has every right to say, "Sobrang nag-aral ako noh! Tignan mo nga pimples ko!"
That, my dear friends, is a perfect example of seeing the world through rose-colored glasses. However, although my face is teeming with zits, I am not yet fully credible in saying these pimples are "fruits of my labor" since I have NOT YET finished studying for Advanced Algebra. I still blame the stupid hormones (I wash my face noh!) ;) Guess the real optimism could start after I'm done with everything. Then, I could view these pimples the way I want to.
By the way, the Mag was distributed last Monday. CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL MEMBERS OF THE STAFF! Job well done.
Yours till the pimples burst,
Zit Girl.
Chexy babe at the inflatables.
Ers, Jodie, Me, Amp, Joy
E takot talaga kami eh.
Feeling marunong.
Masayang magpaka-jologs ;)
The most appropriate caption ever.
Love :D
The royal hottness ;)
love love love :)
I want to both smile and cry. Happy memories. Only memories.