her.
Trixie
16 years old, trapped in an 11-year old's body
loves the scent of: cupboards, air conditioners, coffee, cinammon, and Bayo (as in the store)
moods too easily swayed by whatever music is playing
fickle, undecided, impatient, paranoid
Jason Mraz ♥
likes things clean, but is pretty messy
interested in photography (haha as if)
out of words
Friday, December 7, 2007!
HandWritten on; 6:26 AM
Hate is such a strong word.
I hate that I hate too many things right now.
I hate that my very very close friend is in the hospital.
I hate it when the people I expect to entertain me on youtube don't upload any new videos. Hello, esmeedenters, miaarose, mariedigby, kevjumba, and happyslip? Where are you people??
I hate how I missed a Religion long test because of cough and a sore throat.
I hate how I feel like I'm left a step behind while the whole world keeps moving in such a fast pace (okay, that's mainly because I was absent yesterday and I know I could exaggerate a little sometimes).
I hate how I've been feeling so stupid lately. Like the dumb, brainless kind of stupid. Parang, Hi, Patricia Conlu! Ang tanga tanga mo.
I hate feeling like such a failure.
I hate not being content with who I am, what I have, and what I can do. It's like I want more--way, way more. I feel like I have to be better in everything I do so I could like myself. It's like there's so much I need to prove to ME, to myself. Am I really good at this? Am I really good at that? If not, well, I should just rot in..err, heaven.Okay labo :))
I hate being too emo sometimes.
I hate that my throat still hurts badly and how I'm coughing like a madman right now.
But love is way more powerful.
I love how I spent a few hours after school in TriNoma with my parents. Bonding rules :)
I love that we ate in Sbarro.
I love that today's Friday.
I love practicing for the Songfest.
I love that there's this slight chance I could start Christmas shopping tomorrow.
I love that my clan's going to Tahanan tomorrow for ChariTeam Year II, and for Mama's birthday celebration with the Tahanan folks.
I love how much I can love.
I love how I feel loved by so many people.
I love the assurance that although I hate myself right now, although I'm not satisfied with who I am, and with what I've achieved in life so far, there are people who will never ever fail to make me feel important.
I love how I'm pouring out everything here and how I'm suddenly feeling much, much better.
Lastly, I love knowing that LOVE will always, always overrule HATE.
It all just really boils down to the way we choose to view things.
