her.
Trixie
16 years old, trapped in an 11-year old's body
loves the scent of: cupboards, air conditioners, coffee, cinammon, and Bayo (as in the store)
moods too easily swayed by whatever music is playing
fickle, undecided, impatient, paranoid
Jason Mraz ♥
likes things clean, but is pretty messy
interested in photography (haha as if)
out of words
Sunday, February 3, 2008!
HandWritten on; 12:06 AM
Pagod na ko.
I know I shouldn't be, but I am.
Think: fish taken out of the water for, say about 8 months (suppose it's alive. nearing death, though). Fish put back in a bowl for, like two days. Then fish taken out of the water again, for about another 2 months.
I'm just so tired.
As in, pagod na pagod na.
Not physically.
But I this kind of tiredness is even more exhausting than being physically tired.
It just goes on and on and on and on... and I want it to stop.
I want to NOT care about anything in the world.
To stare into space for as long as I want and not fear every single tick of the clock I lose by doing so.
I want to STOP rushing.
It seems that it's all I ever do. Rush, I mean.
An ordinary day would go like this:
Wake up 5 minutes late.
Squeeze taking a bath, dressing up, eating breakfast, fixing my hair, and brushing my teeth in 50 minutes.
Panic if traffic's heavy along Katipunan or Q. Ave.
Get in class. Hear the warning bell.
Get things from my locker before the electric bell rings.
And then it's battling with either boredom or brain exhaustion for 8 or 9 hours.
Until the bell rings for the final time.
Fix things, put stuff in my locker--still in a fast manner because my friends would be waiting for me.
Get in the car. Sleep a total of 50 minutes--60, if traffic's bad--until we get to Antipolo.
Rest for about 20 minutes.
Do homework, study for quizzes, do stuff for the Mag--all before 10PM, my ideal bedtime.
Panic when 10's nearing, and I haven't finished everything yet.
Sleep at 10:30-11 (because I never make it on time).
Hear the annoying and extremely loud alarm clock at 5.
And then I go.
Same old routine.
Every SINGLE DAY.
I'm tired.
But I bet you're tired too.
Because who wouldn't be?
